Day 10

Still feeling tired and groggy in the morning even with a decent breakfast. Oddly enough I've been getting jaw and headaches as well.

I've also noticed that within 30 minutes of taking the pill I'm fast asleep. BUT, not in a heavy deep sleep like other meds, just in a comfortable sleep.

On Sunday I took a large group of 30+ people on a long ride through the Big Bear loop (200+ miles). Normally I'd be worried if I was going to fast or to slow, when was the next turn. This time everything went well. Everyone said the pace was good and that they were keeping up just fine. I was able to relax, have fun, and enjoy the ride.

Day 7

I had a good nights sleep, however I woke up feeling groggy and slow again with back pain. Throughout the day I've gotten small but sharp headaches which seem to come and go.

I spent the morning writing code for the ocmoto icalendar which normally I would have given up after a short time. I managed to work through and figure out the basics. I ran into a few hurdles which I found myself finding creative solutions for.

I do feel that I spent to much time and I was very determined to finish so I found myself pressing on rather then leaving it.

I was writing the blog post for yesterday and found it difficult to recall some basic things. Whereas the beginning of week everything was easy to remember for a few days now I find it a bit difficult.

I have a similar feeling like I did before starting zoloft where I feel like the past days have been a blur and not much accomplished. Although, I do know thats not true and see some of the things I've done, I just don't like that I can't remember them as well as before.

I have a busy day ahead of me ensuring that the everything is prepared for the ocmoto BBQ, paying the bills, and helping my wife cook for our guests tonight.

Day 6

I'm writing this as it were 5/1:

I woke up feeling real tired and sluggish. I've been starting to get some muscle soreness and pains in my leg as well as slight headaches.

After dropping my wife of at work I had to go to Aliso Viejo. On the way back I hit traffic which normally I would have gotten very frustrated and taken side streets. I instead waited patiently and eventually got home.

Soon as I got home I proceeded to clean the bathroom and mop the kitchen. I felt very sluggish and slow.

After cleaning I say down and worked on my business plan then moved on to finishing my action items for ocmoto.

Time flew and I didn't even notice it was 312PM and I had to go pickup my wife. We went straight to the mall to look for mothers day gifts and an early dinner. As before I felt alot more calm and just enjoyed my time being out.

I did however also notice that I am feeling a bit more sensitive and taking things to seriously sometimes. My wife would make a comment and I would take it as an insult and get bogged down over it. I'm not sure why, but I was being more serious then usual.