Day 10

Still feeling tired and groggy in the morning even with a decent breakfast. Oddly enough I've been getting jaw and headaches as well.

I've also noticed that within 30 minutes of taking the pill I'm fast asleep. BUT, not in a heavy deep sleep like other meds, just in a comfortable sleep.

On Sunday I took a large group of 30+ people on a long ride through the Big Bear loop (200+ miles). Normally I'd be worried if I was going to fast or to slow, when was the next turn. This time everything went well. Everyone said the pace was good and that they were keeping up just fine. I was able to relax, have fun, and enjoy the ride.

Day 4

So far the days been good. After a long 50 minute walk and run with the dogs I came home, did my normal hour or so on ocmoto reviewing and posting. Spent another hour or so cleaning up the Beacon website and moved on to starting this Blog.

I'm amazed at home much I can focus, not only on coding but on everything in general. I would have never been able to sit in one place for so long writing out my thoughts and memories.

I'm also amazed at how much memory I have of the past couple of days. Normally my day would have been so hectic that I would only remember important details that I found important.

Another thing that I'm ecstatic about is the fact that I'm not tired. Sure I'm a bit drowsy from a busy day, but nothing more than normal. Over the last couple of days there have been many situations where I would have been so tired I would have just fallen asleep. But now I don't.

Apparently my speech has also slowed to a normal level as I haven't found people asking me to repeat things or slow down. I have to take their word for now until I can record myself.

Day 2| 4/27

Recalling the weekend to the best I can.

Sunday 4/20-
We started the day off early (7AM) going to Ralphs to buy groceries for breakfast. It was nice to walk to walk through the store fairly calm with my mind focused on what we needed to buy and how much we could spend without my mind racing off trying to calculate every item and thinking if it was cheaper somewhere else.

After making breakfast we continued our day. My mom left for a little while at which time my wife and I prepared lunch. Again, the calm was so nice as I wasn't worried about the itty bitty details of the grill, cooking times ect... I laid out briquettes, let the flames die down, and laid out the poultry. I simply went back every 10 min or so to check on the chicken. Normally I would be so worried about burring the food that I would end up over or under cooking the food. But this time everything turned out perfect with only 1 skewer a bit undercooked.

After lunch we went on to my fathers and went out with him for desert. I was able to pickup on most of the Spanish conversation he was having with my wife. Overall it was a great time as normally my mind would wonder off and I would start analyzing or thinking about new ideas.

The drive home was again very nice and calm as I was able to hold a conversation with my wife all the way home.

Once we got home we watched a bit of Horton Hears a Who and fell right asleep. After about 20 min my wife woke me up and we went to bed. I took my pill and got into bed. I found it a bit difficult to sleep as I didn't feel tired. My mind wasn't racing but I wasn't tired either. I got my iPhone, watched Tekzilla and fell right asleep.

Day 1| 4/26

Recalling the weekend to the best I can.

Saturday 4/19-
The day started of with a long drive to see family in Los Angeles (referred to as LA from now on). I have a general disgust for LA for many reasons that alone could fill up an entire blog so I'll leave that for now. First thing I noticed on the drive was how much more focused I was on the road and the conversation I was having with my wife. Before my mind would race watching every building and store trying to understand what there business could be, how many people they employed, ect. Obviously this was somewhat dangerous as I wouldn't have 100% attention to the road and I was always distracted. On top of that I would have a conversation with my wife which I wanted to pay attention to.

So after the long drive we finally arrived at my mother's house for breakfast. Again my mind was more calm and focused then ever and I was able to carry out a conversation. When my mother said something I disagreed with it was so much easier to keep my mouth shut and let it be.

After a long afternoon and lunch we took an hour nap. I slept better then ever and fell asleep right away. Before it would take me at least 30 min to fall asleep regardless of how tired I was. We awoke from the nap and watched The Kite Runner.

It was like I had never watched a movie before. Not only was 90% of the movie subtitled but I was able to pay so much more attention to the plot line and character twists. Before I would watch a movie and like on the freeway look at every possible detail to understand it. I would look at the buildings and look for hints weather they were sets on a sound stage or shot on location. I would pay more attention to what characters were doing in the background, ect... Needless to say, it was a great movie and a real eye opening. I was able to easily stay awake throughout the movie, whereas normally I'd be fighting the feeling to sleep.

We then went out for a walk, which again felt like a whole new experience as I was able to enjoy the scenery without my mind racing. I was able to pay attention to the conversation my wife and mother were having without getting distracted or spacing out. Aside from getting fixed on finding an address I received in an email I was fine.

I was checking my email while we were walking (not the best idea, I know) when a friend emailed me a name of a park in Anaheim. I immediately had to find it. And although it would not come up in google maps or online I was persistent. Once I found the parks address it still did not come up in google maps. My wife noticed my frustration and quickly asked me to stop and pay attention to the sidewalk in front of us.

We came home from the walk, took a shower, and watch TV for a bit before having dinner. I helped my mom for a bit as we stayed up. We ended up going to bed at nearly 2am.